I am holding my head in my hand. I have been doing that a
lot lately. When I was younger, older people would rebuke you for doing that. “What
is a child like you thinking about that you need to hold your head in your
hands” they would say. I did not understand it then but today it makes perfect
sense. What in the world could worry a child to the point that he holds his
head in his hands? Has he felt the joy of success in relation to the ignominy
that comes with failure? Or has he experienced love in relation to the crushing
pain of betrayal? The answer to most adults is probably ‘of course not’. But
think again. In their own ‘little’ world, children feel these emotions in the
same way that adults do. Consider this. The big problems to a 20 year old would
come off as ridiculous to a 50 year old, in the same way that the troubles of a
5 year old would seem laughable to a 15 year old. The point is that the
struggle begins from the day we are forced to draw our first breath of this
cruel world’s oxygen. Why then do we put
down the struggles of others while we amplify ours? In the end, a spouse who
has been the victim of unfaithfulness feels the same degree of betrayal as a
child who was promised a new pair of shoes at the beginning of the school year,
but never got it. The difference lies in the way each one deals with the betrayal.
A child would be quicker to forgive a betrayal and once again offer his trust,
without reservations or malice. On the other hand, an adult who has been
through years of betrayal, learns the true nature of human beings. He knows
better than a child, that people can be infinitely wicked and that his trust
must be guarded jealously, because he knows better than a child ever will, that
a heart can only take so much pain before it becomes cold and withers. The
child has no knowledge of this fact. He sees the world through innocent eyes,
clear as crystal, hopeful and infinitely forgiving. However, what I find
particularly apt is that no matter how much of we know of the cruelty of the
world, nothing can prepare a heart for the fierce sting of a betrayal. It does
not matter how many times you go through it, every new experience cuts just as
deep as the last. It reminds you in the most brutal fashion that the world,
full of hope as it is, remains enslaved to wickedness. Another feeling I find
peculiar is that which comes with being on the delivery end of the betrayal. Believe
it or not, in some cases, for people who have a conscience anyway, it feels
just as bad as being betrayed. It doesn’t come with the knowledge of having
your trust thrown to the wind, but it is a feeling of loss. It comes with the
knowledge of the fact that you have been a part of a destructive process and
that nothing you do can erase that truth. It is the feeling of knowing that
even when you have been forgiven, the damage has been done and there is no
going back on it. Of course you can move forward and make amends but the
memories linger as a constant threat to your future happiness. It is a feeling
that is accompanied by regret. You can only rely on time to repair the damage
but the scars are everlasting and in that I find the harshest and most tragic
reality of life in a world full of hope.
I was just on Twitter minding my own business and airing my views on a recently trending topic. Yes, you guessed right - the 'Transfiguration' of Bruce Jenner. I said that it is a disgrace to men and women alike. I also said that his action after more than 5 decades of being alive, is a perfect example of what emasculation can result to. I stand by my words because I believe that what he did is unnatural. Some people disagree. They are of the opinion that there is nothing unnatural about a sex change. Someone even went as far as to compare the situation to barrenness. All I can say is that barrenness like many natural defects is something that should be solved because it is natural to procreate. Barrenness is a a challenge that causes families sadness and disappointment. A sex change is a whole other thing. It is a person being u satisfied with the way they are born and taking the matter into their surgeon's hand so that they can wear a bra instead of boxers or boxers inst...
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